Welcome to 2024!
You can't complain. You will have to run with self control, confidence, stability, smartness and silence.
I was given three options for this blog. Write about school life or write about my life in general or about how I've grown from different experiences. They all sound the same to me because in anyone I chose I get to talk about the rest of it. But I'll write more about how I've grown from different experiences, at home, school, with family and all.
Randomly asked chima one afternoon the year I was born in just to be sure. It struck me that i'm getting old and I'll soon be telling my children to pack their lunch bag for school because all hands will be on deck oh!
I started my 2024 with Christ after a random conversation I had with a friend and she said; women are home builders. I knew that but on the terms of Christ, how would I train my children in a godly way or have a godly family I've always dreamed of if I'm not representing. I had to challenge myself.
During an exam day in school, one early morning. I got into the hall and found my group of friends arguing concerning the scripture and I wanted to pitch in. Guess what? I was shunned instantly. "Ehh Huoma don't even talk here. You that don't know your way to church". Damn! Word still rings like church bell in my ears. I was so hurt that day and I watched as they argued their way through. I knew inside of me I was right. I knew if I had talked, I would have convinced the guy who said there are lesser and greater sins- there's absolutely nothing like that. I would have made God happy probably and I would be satisfied as per I contributed but Omo as they have seen me finish, the girl that doesn't go to church, the girl that doesn't know the bible, the girl that turns down church invites but I don't even go out. I sat on my seat and buried my head into my note after all we had exam that morning.
I let this one slide. Never try that again, don't shun me in your life. I know you are reading this.
School hasn't been easy and I can't complain. It's another stage i must pass through to get to where i want to be. It's normal to run around for the first semester of your hundred level. As the semesters go by, you run larger ones and you know you have to run it. You can't complain. You will have to run with self control, confidence, stability, smartness and silence.
Abitarily remembered when one of my roommates annoyingly said I'm always having something to say and I'm always defending myself. I laughed that day but now I have something to tell you.
If I don't defend myself, no one will. You or anyone else would probably not fight in my defence at my absence or presence. Now I'm alive and kicking, Whatever have been said to my face, I would speak up to the end.
I've actually grown from different experiences. It sings maturity. This one my mother carried me along to all the wedding invites she had last year (cough slightly).
As humans, we trust people. Alot! We give people this sense of entitlement and it makes them toss us however they want. You hold someone on high regards and when it comes to you, you belittle yourself. I'm now channeling that energy I had for someone else to myself. I deserve it. I need to hype myself more often than I can imagine.
Another thing I remind myself is everything is a personal race.
I remember one of my roommates from the boarding house I attended during high school years. I was enrolled for just a year and I stopped. Boarding house wasn't for me! This my ex roommate was so nice to me, she was just a class ahead of me. Right now, I can barely recall all we did back then but I know she acted as my school mother and she was fond of minding her business. I really liked her for it. One morning, I can't remember what year exactly, she kicked the bucket. May her gentle soul rest in peace. I recall just being on the floor speechless.
Now please tell me why I would wait for you before I become who I want to be? When we don't even know whose turn it would be. No gree for anybody true true oh!
God has also been so intentional about the people he brings into my life. Some weeks after my phone was stolen, I met this person. Great sense of humour, funny, extremely smart, pretentious probably and far from intentional. He ran me street! Simple. God took him away from me after three days of "about to catch feelings". In Fact let me not lie.... Never in my life again...... We still talk though but now the boundaries are known.
This 2024, I am now a closed book. I purposely bought an airpod this year, with every intention of putting it on wherever I'm going. Why? I'm running away from speaking too much and listening to unnecessary things. I won't be stepping out without it. I've also learnt to handle every task singly. If you know me, you know how much I hate doing things alone but this time, I've decided to do alot of solo outings. Especially a solo date at a restaurant. I'll drop pictures on my IG, don't worry.
There's life outside school! Read that again.
I read a book when I returned home EAT THAT FROG! By Brian Tracey. To eat a frog, you have to take it one bite at a time, right? To solve a problem you have to attempt it one step at a time. Baby steps! But you need to have CLARITY- It is the most important concept in personal productivity. The more clear you are as a person, the easier it is to overcome procrastination, eat your frog and get on with completion of the task. This book is for another blog post though and I can't wait to share the beautiful review with you. Meanwhile get a copy for yourself and read before we meet again so we can teach each other.
Yesterday before I went for a church programme at noon, I said to myself at the mirror. I am remarkable! You can't even imagine the pride I went out with to church and I came back the happiest and fulfilled lady I wanted. If you speak positivity to yourself you get a positive result but if you are filled with nothing but negativity, you would get a negative result. I'm a girl that stares in the mirror and talk positive to herself. I do that alot and I will continue doing it. It has helped me carry myself with so much confidence.
Lastly, let adults settle their problems. You know what I mean.
So I'll drop off from here with two quotes that have never left me.
“The things that matters most must never be at the mercy of the things that matters least".
_Goethe.
"If you are not getting better, you are getting worse".
_Pat Riley
See you next week.
None of the photos were created by me.
-hn_jazmyn.
Everything you said!!